Sometimes you feel like you have your entire life figured out.
However that is not the way I feel now.. And this is a strange feeling for someone that always likes to know what is up ahead, way in advance.
I wonder what is up ahead now, and that uncertainty just frightens me.
Spent the entire night having dreams about things I dont want to think about during daytime, so I guess my conscience is really forcing me to wake up and react.
Some days I am sure I want to stay where I am.. Lisbon, Madrid.. loving it. Sometimes I just feel like I am stuck here instead of being far away in another country long time ago.
When I started my current job it was supposed to be a 3 month maximum routine, while I was looking for my traineeship abroad. More than 6 months have passed now..
Sometimes I think why didnt I go for an MC abroad? I still miss AIESEC.. and I would be in a different country too. But then again, my time has passed.
So I find myself in a permanent question mark, with exclamation points somewhere in the middle...
The curious thing is that right after my "2004 Evaluation and 2005 Objectives" exercise, at one of my dearest places, I was quite sure of my path until September 2005. It was water clean!!
Today I woke up and that feeling is not there anymore!